For this reading, I had asked the following questions:
What should I be focusing on now? Is there anything I need to know about my purpose, especially as it relates to my personal healing and growth?
What follows are the notes I took that day on my interpretation of these cards:
The Core of the Issue & What Crosses It: Death crossed by 10 of Cups
Truly, the core of my question is in many ways about the process of death and rebirth I now find myself in.
I’m dying to many past elements of myself and my past so that I may be reborn again and become the woman I know I am meant to be now and in the future.
As I accept and lean into this dying, my natural joy seems to be returning. There is no longer such a driving pressure to push myself into “achieving” happiness.”
Instead, as I let all that does not serve me wither and fall away, my well-being seems to arise more spontaneously.
The Basis of your Question: 7 of Pentacles
The basis of my question is that I am looking to my past to observe what has come about as a result of it, in order to start making plans for my future. I’m seeing what I have sown and what I have reaped so that I can do differently in the future if I want to.
Recent Past: 3 of Wands
This is reinforced by the 3 of Wands in the position showing my recent past. This card is about surveying the landscape in front of you and using your previous experiences, current desires and even your past pain as you look out toward what could become your future. It means pausing and taking the time to ascend to higher ground to view the territory from a more objective perspective.
Higher Self: Queen of Pentacles
This position is meant to represent your Higher Self, and with the Queen of Pentacles here, it shows how I have been learning how to take on the role of being a mother to myself. I am finding ways to give myself all that I once wanted and needed as a child, but never was given or allowed to have by my actual mother. Above all, I am learning how to hold myself gently and with care, much as this Queen holds her Pentacle on her throne.
Near Future: 8 of Cups
This shows how, much like in the image on this card, I am preparing to leave behind one situation to go out in search of greater happiness and fulfillment. In this card we see a solar eclipse, symbolizing one kind of order or way of being in the world receding as a new one arises to take its place.
What I Bring to the Situation: 9 of Cups
I think that in some way I do feel like my wishes are being granted right now. I’ve read anything and everything out there, gone through so much therapy, and worked so hard in an effort to heal, and now I feel that this healing is happening for me.
What Others Contribute / How What You Bring is Perceived in Your Outer Environment: Page of Wands
This card can indicate a sense of honesty, innocence and eagerness to please. It can mean someone who has great ideas and intentions, and shows a lot of excitement at the beginning of a project, but is usually not so great with the follow through. It’s a reminder that I need to be more persistent and committed to acting on my goals (and not just the dreaming and planning parts).
Hopes & Fears / Advice: 9 of Pentacles
The woman in this card is known to be independent, self-assured, secure, and at ease in abundance. She has good boundaries and has taken the time to cultivate herself in order to achieve success. Truly, this is what I want most for myself right now.
Final Outcome: 7 of Cups
This card is all about imagination, fantasy, illusions and dreams. This reflects the danger I am in of falling into a familiar pattern or trap that I have of eternal dreaming about the possibilities and never getting anything real or substantial accomplished. So with that said, I know now that I need to be careful and watch out for this as I move forward.
I want to commit to taking direct, practical action on specific tasks that will actually move me forward towards my goals. I need to release my previous patterns of overthinking and endlessly theorizing while I neglect reality and my actual state of affairs. I’m ready to start making real changes now.