During the last days of my medical treatment for the parasite, I was still feeling a lot of generalized fear and anxiety that would seem to come from nowhere and overtake me without warning.
One night, I was in meditation and I started to have a lot of fear regarding the way the vision had ended, with me being eaten by the turquoise serpent.
I think it was in response to one of the images Noé had sent me, of the man being swallowed by the serpent.
In his message he had said, “we see the being consumed by the matter planes and lower body impulses (Coátl) and unable to act for itself controlled by the parasites..”
I was like, “Uh oh…this guy on the Mayan vase looks A LOT like me being eaten the other day. Am I in trouble?”
I started to panic, thinking, “Oh no, it’s all over, I’m doomed,” etc.
But a stronger voice from above said, “Hell no! Don’t believe it. You will be given another vision, you’ll know what to do.”
I thought, “Oh no, not now! I’m too scared. I couldn’t…”
But it came more quickly than I’d imagined it would.
First, I saw the turquoise serpent to my right, with my body still in its belly.
Then a very large dragon appeared: a bright green, distinctly female dragon. It had a cute little red bow attached to the left side of its head. I feel a bit silly saying this, but that’s kind of how I knew it was me.
But not the personal, little me, not Eleanor, lying immobilized in the serpent’s stomach.
It was my higher self, my soul, the part of me which is eternal and beyond.
She took a step toward the serpent and looked him right in the eyes. He bowed his head, and though he didn’t seem to like it, he didn’t make any move to resist as she stepped forward and swallowed him whole, head-first.
I was a bit confused by this detail. “Are you sure?” I had always seen those images of the Ouroboros, the snake (or sometimes dragon) eating its own tail, and I thought it would be the same here.
“No, it has to be this way,” was the answer.
As I watched the last bit of the serpent’s tail disappear into her mouth, the dragon gave herself a little pat on the belly. With a wink, she said, “Don’t worry, babe. It’s not to hurt you, it’s to integrate you.” 😉
[Apparently my higher self has a sense of humor.]
I immediately recognized her words as echoing those of the serpent as he swallowed me to “transmute” me.
And then I saw as the head of the serpent reached the tail of the dragon, and vice versa. In this way, the opposites met and were joined.
The insides of their bodies dissolved into a golden, liquid substance, while their skins hardened into the shell of an egg.
I saw my body inside the golden amniotic fluid of what was, I soon noticed, not an egg but a chrysalis.
I lay inside this cocoon where, like the butterfly, I would soon begin to undergo the process of digesting myself, dissolving the cells of what once was in order to be transformed into the self I was born to become.
And with that, the vision ended: with me, in a gentle sleep before the last decay. Relaxed, safe and enclosed within my own energy, ready to release and to regenerate anew.
That night I slept more peacefully than I have in many months. I felt it was an important conclusion to something which still felt unfinished after the first vision.